Wow, this quote from Julia Cameron hit me in the heart and resonated in my soul.
I have surrendered!
I always thought it would be selfish of me to spend time doing my favorite thing in the world, creating art. Drawing, getting messy, playing with pencils, inks, slapping down colors, sponging, gluing, crafting, laughing, connecting with other like minded people. Raising kids, wonderful other jobs, not so wonderful jobs, aging parents needs, life in general, got in my way. However something was missing. My adult children tiled and proclaimed a room in my house the Art Studio. I had a room of my own, windows all around it, butterflies and hummingbirds in the summer. Cue music. Leaves falling in the Autumn, refreshing spring rain. Winter makes me relocate on some days.
Truly I have been avoiding creating art and I do not know why.
I have been getting in my own way!
When I was little I wanted to grow up and be an Artist, I went to art school.
I just never took it seriously until I took an online Art course devoted to mixed media. I met another artist named Julissie Saltzberg before the course started She shared a painting she had done and said these simple words” You can do this”, with sincerity. To my surprise the words “I know” tumbled out of my mouth. The words were normal but I felt my heart leap in my body; now that part wasn’t so normal. It was if a veil had been lifted. Permission granted. I started listening to what people around me have been saying for years: do your art! So this year I am taking it seriously, I know right? Leaning in, showing up and sharing. I still struggle with vulnerability and leaping without a net. For the first time in many, many years I feel awake, excited to start the day anew! Wee!